"Where are you really from?": a qualitative study of Asian American medical provider experiences.

The COVID-19 pandemic highlighted how racially minoritized patients and clinicians have suffered racial discrimination. It also made visible the ways in which Asians across the globe experience racial hate and illuminated that the experiences of Asians in medicine are not often spotlighted. In the United States specifically, Asian Americans are not viewed as minoritized in medicine, yet their professional experiences are rarely highlighted. Informed by the discourses of the model minority, the forever foreigner, and ethnic lumping, we used Asian critical theory to explore how Asian American medical providers in Utah understand racial and ethnic identity and how these identities and experiences of racialization inform their professional identities. Using a case study approach, we identified and interviewed 23 physicians, physician assistants, and nurse practitioners (during spring 2022) who live in and practice medicine in Utah. Transcribed interviews were coded using reflective thematic analysis. Findings were organized into three themes: (1) feeling different, (2) experiences with discrimination, and (3) wrestling with the model minority myth. While Asian American medical providers experience not belonging, they also have the agency to disrupt discrimination and stereotypes. Asian American medical providers' racial and ethnic identities influence their professional interactions. Understanding the intersections of their social and professional identities are important to providing support for Asian medical providers, within the United States and beyond.